Haphazard
Unforgiving
Independent
I believe in something similar to "the force" in Star wars. A lot of things in this world happen by chance, such as the birth of every human being. The force, or the laws of physics and science, are also unforgiving. If you fall off of a bridge, no one and nothing will stop you from killing yourself. It doesn't care about you, so you have to look out for your own well being. Also, the "God" that I believe in is representative of independence in two ways. The first way is that it is independent of all human choices. Whatever we do, the force will not change. Whether the human race is wiped out overnight, whether there is a blackout in the main city of a country, or whether I have cancer or not, the sun will still rise tomorrow and the force will begin a new day and be the one to conclude it as well. It is present in everything and dictates what actions are sane and what actions are insane (i.e jumping off of a bridge). The second way that it is independent is that it supports humans to maintain a sense of independence. We have to stay independent from mundane qualities in order to survive everyday. The force defines what a sane action is, so we must follow these rules if we want to live. If we don't, we jump. Or shoot ourselves. Or burn to death. Whatever the choice is, the force will accept it and continue to strive until there is no life left in the universe and even onward from then. The experience that encouraged me to adopt these principles was when my grandpa died from a peach. He couldn't swallow it, so he died a pitiful death with the only thing he could be angry at being a peach. All it would have taken was a sip of water, or somehow, for a god out there to push that peach down a few centimeters. The Christian God is said to work in mysterious ways, but if He is all-powerful, why couldn't he have pushed that peach down? Or solved all of this world's problems in the blink of an eye? If the moral He is trying to teach us is to become more pious, there is no point. For if there were no problems, we would all be good, and the need to be trained to be pious through punishment would be non-existant. I am not angry at God, or any other god, but I just don't see the point in not saving humans when it is so easy for them.
For the question that Ms. James gave me during class, about how order came from an explosion, I explained something similar in an earlier blog post. Although it is a crude example, all humans are alive because we are the ones out of 250,000 sperm to survive. From that, it also depends on what day our parents had sex, since if it was even one day apart, a different human would have been born. The odds that our parents would meet each other on a specific date and fall in love with that person are extremely small as well, as they could have met anyone else. Every single choice that they made in their lives, such as what college to attend, what grades they had in high school, and how well they scored on a test, amount to an astronomically rare opportunity of them meeting. And that isn't it. The choices of my grandparents, their parents, their parents, and so on and so forth continue so that the chances of me, Daniel Juwon Lee, being born are nearly impossible. However, all of the billions of other babies that could have possibly been born also had the same chance, and I was simply chosen by luck by the haphazard force. So, I believe that there are also an infinitely large amount of other possible universes that could have been created, all going down to the science of whether one atom was beside this atom, or if this Hydrogen formed with this other Hydrogen or that one. It is just an example, but you see how the order that came from this was simply chosen out of an infinity of other choices, some of which would have amounted to destruction, and others into an even more orderly universe. The force is unforgiving, since it doesn't give these other alternate realities a chance at surviving, but it is independent of the choices or happenings of anything as well. This is why anything in this universe is based on chance and very risky.
I respect and fear the force. It doesn't care about me, but I have no choice but to be its subordinate, since if I don't, I would die. I won't drop a candle on my foot since the force would burn it, and I won't eat an iPod since it would not feel good. However, all of these choices doesn't affect the force at all, since it isn't a living being, but rather a presence within all living and nonliving beings/objects. It is the one ultimate rule that everything follows and must follow, and this is why I must fear and adhere to it.
My God is not a single being, but is within all beings.
The Force forces all to adhere to it, whether it breathes or not.
I respond by bowing down and wishing it to spare me.
But what is there to bow down to when there is no physical embodiment of the Force?
So I get up
and once again, the process of life begins as I see the Force affecting all matter that is around me.
I am in awe at this concept that I will never grasp but is present in everything I see.
All that is, simply is.
